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9:43 AM

Monday, June 16, 2014

Feelings That Is Unable To Reach

Takumi, the guy, she met through online and found out that he was studying the same school as she is in college. Eventually, Both of them met halfway everyday together with Haruhi older brother Kai. Haruhi describes Takumi as a chatty and fun person to be with. Arrived at school, they both will go their seperate ways as they were taking different courses. They will only meet during lunch time together with Haruhi older brother Kai and after school.

As days goes by, Haruhi developed feelings for Takumi without her realizing until Kai notices her weird movements at home or when she's near to Takumi. Everyday, those two will text each other till late at night.

One evening, she texted Takumi stating that she liked him. As for him, it took quite a while to realize that he was actually also had feeling for her. In the end, he told her.

That didn't mean they start going out together but staying the same as before. They chatted and be themselves. For Haruhi, it was different. She actually loved Takumi, instead, she told him that she 'liked' him. She knew from the beginning that it's impossible for both of them to be together. Besides, she knew Takumi is more into friends then relationship. She drew a line between both of them. To ease the feelings inside of her, she wrote into her diary every single day.

As days went by, her body went weak. Her head hurts badly most of the time. Even when she studies during her mid term exams. The pain went worse and fainted at school. She was rushed to the hospital together with Kai by her side. Upon Receiving the reports that came in, Kai was unable to take the news as he knew that his sister wont be by his side forever. Haruhi was aware of the condition that she's having but that doesn't stop her from smiling and loving the guy she ever want to be with but unable to. In school, everyone was informed that Haruhi will be going overseas to continue her studies without knowing the actual reason behind it. Takumi heard the news and immediately gave Kai a call and met him after school.

Kai was waiting for Takumi outside school holding a book that wrote 'Haruhi's Diary.' Kai handed the Diary to Takumi and asked him to read it before Kai went home. After washing up, Takumi took out the book that Kai gave to him earlier and wondered why would he read Haruhi's Diary. He opened and started to read. Everything that was written in the book was actually meant for him. Its the remainder days of Haruhi's life, her feelings for him. Takumi started crying when he read the last entry.

Dearest Takumi,

Upon reading this entry, i just want to say that you are the greatest person i ever meet all my life and eventually i fell in love in you. I wont be yours because you're into friendship then relationship. i dont want to destroy that friendship we had. My time is up on earth. I guess you wont be seeing me. Hahah. Am sorry i left without saying goodbye. Go on with your life and achieve your goals okay? Promise me that you live well. All i wanna say is,

I love you Takumi.

From
Haruhi

signed,, FT Island's fan

9:29 AM

Monday, November 18, 2013

Takeshi.

Hana, the girl who lived a simple life since she was born. Family, friends that she could trust ( which is not that many ) and dreams that she want to achieve in life. Great Ambition, a dentist that is, she wants to be. She studied hard to achieve her goals in life.

During a computer lesson conducted by her technical teacher in school, one of her classmates introduce her a website called 'Facebook'. She was so unsure on how it works as she doesn't know much about cyber space. The classmate of hers, thought her step by step on how the website is being used and told her that it was a very popular site where you could find your long lost friends / family and make new friends. She was taken in by the explaination she received and start learning how to use it.

Each day, she learns how to use the website right after she done her homework and projects that was suppose to be hand in by the end of the year. She started by adding her classmates by searching their names in the search engine provided. It took time for her to get the hang of the website and start to learn to post random posts such as, 'It's such a sunny day outside. What shall i do today?'. She got hooked to the site easily and at times she even forgot to do her homework.

After her form teacher warnings of her to buckle up on her studies, she took the advice well and start to revise back all that she missed and her study grades were back on track.

One evening, she received a text message from her inbox on Facebook from a guy she doesn't even know. The guy who text her was a good friend of her classmate who introduce her to Facebook. He text her stating if she would be able to accept his friend request. Gladly she did.

The both of them start talking to each other awkwardly at first, it took several weeks to make the awkwardness to something what they called 'Comfortable' to speak to. Both found out that they have the same age and their birthday gap was near to each other. Hana was on 21 september while the guy who's name was Takashi, is on 15 Nov. Their birth date was only a few days apart.

On their birthdays, both of them shall exchange their gifts to one another via mail post. That was when love start to spark between both of them. It was Hana who confessed to Takeshi that she was in love wit him. At that moment, time freezes. Takeshi didn't reply to her confession. Hana was waiting for his reply for almost a week till on 18 October, he replied saying that he does have feeling towards her and apologized for his late reply as he was sorting out his feelings at that moment.

Hana and Takeshi was together on 18 October. They didn't went out on a date like a normal couple will do. They just continuing chat online like any normal days til both decided to meet once. They set a date and eagerly wait for that upcoming date!

On their first meeting, Hana was just wearing a simple black dress wit white lace at the bottom of her dress and light make-up. She was wondering what took Takeshi so long to arrive at the location that supposed to meet that day. Suddenly, she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around and saw a tall, medium size, wears spectacle guy standing right in front of her and asked if she was Hana.

First impression of Hana towards Takeshi, Geek. They spent the whole day watching movies, arcade and dinner. Hana describe Takeshi is a very calm and funny guy to be with. The most part that she loved about Takeshi was his smile. His smile was gentle and sweet like an innocent young boy who smiles at you. Even Hana gets upset at times, the only thing that can make Hana smile is Takeshi Innocent Smile. Every moment when he sent her home, he will kiss her forehead and said, 'Goodnight my princess. Sweetdreams.'.

It has been a year and 8 months since they were together. That's where everything starts to change. Takeshi replies her messages late. At times, he will reply Hana 3 days later and his reason was busy with studies and his part time job but Hana understands him.

It kept repeating for a month where Hana sense some thing that is not right somehow. She tried talking to Takeshi friends where she found out an unspeakable truth. Takeshi's closest friend, Kyo told Hana that all the busyness in his life were actually his stay in hospital. Kyo told her that Takeshi, was having a stage 4 Colon Cancer for a month now and he has limited time left.

Hana burst into tears and unable to speak. She visited Takeshi the next day, together with Kyo. Hana unexpected visit made Takeshi had a shock in his life. All the time he wanna to hide from Hana finally has come to an end. Hana ran to him and cried saying not to leave her side. Takeshi looks at her teary eyes and said,'I have to leave one day. I want you to be strong and move on without me.' Hana denies and continue to cry.

Night came and Takeshi asked Hana to go home but she reluctant to. Takeshi gave her the smile that she really love and tell her to rest at home and come again tomorrow. Hana can't defeat that smile and she listens to him.

The day that she want to celebrate their anniversary together turned into a sadness in her life. She received a called at 4am on 8/10/11 stating that Takeshi has left the world. Her legs went weak and fell to the ground unable to speak. She started to cry and the last words she heard from him was, 'Baby, I loved you.'

That was the last time she get to hear his calm voice and smile.

The ceremony was short. Others left but Hana stayed and said to him,'You know, today is our 2 anniversary. Remember those moments we were together? It was beautiful.' She smiled and walked away slowly while tears rolls down on her cheek. She turned back at his grave and said,

'Takeshi, i will always love you. Goodbye.'

signed,, FT Island's fan

8:33 PM

Friday, March 8, 2013

The Doll That Can't Be Loved

Doll. The one that wears dresses with big eyes who sits at the display, waiting for someone to play with it.

This doll was just a naive innocent girl who searches for love that she never felt before in her life. First it was during high school that the girl found a guy who is 4 years senior then her, confessed to her and both started dating but its a short while as her parents forbid her to be in a relationship at such a young age of 14 as it will affect her studies. At first, she was against the decision that her parents made for her but to no avail, she lost him. She was sad as she have to leave the guy who willingly left her to abide to her parents decision.

Soon after, she gave up and concentrated on her studies and earn good grades in her exams. 2 Years past quickly and she was 16 at that time. She did well in her studies for the past years and gain an award for being the best but it went back to the time whens shes 14. An outsider who is actually her best friend's close friend confessed to her that he has feelings for her. She was surprised by the confession of the guy and totally agreed to go out with him. History repeats itself as her parents was against it and again, she has to leave him. From then on, she didn't stop finding a guy for herself.

While waiting for the results to come out next year, she worked as a part time as a maid in a maid café and also a cashier in a department store near the cafe for almost 2 months and there's where she met a guy who is new, working at the same company as she is. She remembered the face of the guy she met that is during the time she was ask for directions and that guy who came with his father came to the cashier and talk to my colleague saying that he was having a job interview of the department store near the shop she was working at and was asking whether he will get the job. She also remembered what he wore during that day. it was a long sleeved black top with a black skinny jeans with sneakers and gel up hair style. he looked dreamy when she were looking at him.

It was unlucky for her that day, as she has to train him how to use the equipment at the cashier counter as it was his first day. she was having an awkward moment when he was around and keeps stuttering when teaching him what was the buttons for. without she realising, lets put the guy name, Shin. Shin place his face near her and said, 'i like you and want to be with you.' She was easily melted when guys sweet talk her and agrees to it easily. Both started dating without the knowledge of her parents. They were together for almost a month now and that's where the problem start. Shin was ignoring her, sms and calls she sent to him. She felt something was not right at that point of time. She open up his profile through his profile and find out that he has someone else. She was heartbroken. She always thought that this relationship could last. She keeps blaming herself and cried everynight and thinking why did he did that to her without her knowledge. Her parents was worried and concern about and ask if there is any matter that she would like to share. She replied,'No'. It didnt stop her from finding a new guy right after the breakup. She kept meeting guys she met online and in the end she receives the same results. She did had a kiss with one of the guys she met online. Plus,that was her first.

signed,, FT Island's fan